In this Waterlily Story III blog, I've been explaining about the special police project to the best of my knowledge and ability, to date. I've said I was done with the criminal matters...and I've said they weren't prosecuted fairly.... Also, I've said the police wanted my help as a civilian in their undercover project....
Have explained some reasons why the police wanted my family and me to be the ones to help them.... And we were functional people, but sometimes dysfunctional.... Have been realizing recently that the problems I've experienced were more my fault than I had at first understood....
These days, if anyone is known in polite society as having spoken unfairly against gays or otherwise made discriminating comments against people in a protected group, they won't prosper.... People will hold them accountable. And I believe that's what I've been dealing with recently.... I had to resolve all the issues with my former landlord/tenant matter and to make amends, to the best of my ability.... --Even though I perhaps wasn't the only one at fault.... But I've done what I can now.--I believe I'm finished.
As I've also said before, the police knew I had weaknesses and they wanted to get to me.... And I believe some of them have appreciated the work I've done in the meantime....
In the past, I'd made efforts to apologize for all my errors but I sometimes wasn't aware of them; and I didn't know the right ways to apologize.... But I got help from the Internet and from books written by psychologists--one, which I mentioned, which happened to be from a Jewish psychologist; and another one was from two, Christian psychologists.... So, I feel a lot more confident and comfortable at this time....
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